So I realized something you should know: we don’t have a conventional relationship.
It’s very planned, we know when we’ll see each other and what we will do when we see each other.
We have hurt each other. You have hurt me and not even known. We will hurt each other again.
But you have also helped me more then I will ever let you know, because I don’t want to let you have even more power over me.
We get confused and upset and say things we shouldn’t…..and, more often, don’t say things we should.
But I love you.
And not in the kinda first sight, butterfly, heart racing way.
When I first met you the ground didn’t tremble and my hands didn’t shake. There was no grand gesture, shakespearean sonnet type moment. No. There was slowness and a cautiousness, almost an unwillingness on both our parts.
Life is easier without love. Being self sufficient is easy. Being in love is hard. And dangerous. Very very dangerous.
Sometimes things that start slow last longer, grow stronger and have deeper roots. And at least its real. And as you have told me before, our relationship is younger than we think it is. And who knows, it could fall apart at any stage but untill then I will promise you something (the idea of which I may have borrowed from Bob Marley)
You may not be my first or my last, you cannot be my only, it’s too late for that…
I loved before and if you leave me I will love again.
I’m not perfect, you aren’t either, and the two of us will never be perfect together – but if i can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, then admit its rare. Admit its love. Admit you should hold onto me.
I may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but I have given you a part of me that i know you can break. So don’t hurt me, don’t change me in a bad way, smile when I make you happy, let me know
when I make you mad, and miss me when i’m not there
In return, you get me. I’m damaged goods. But I’m yours.
We have hurt each other. You have hurt me and not even known. We will hurt each other again.
But you have also helped me more then I will ever let you know, because I don’t want to let you have even more power over me.
We get confused and upset and say things we shouldn’t…..and, more often, don’t say things we should.
But I love you.
And not in the kinda first sight, butterfly, heart racing way.
When I first met you the ground didn’t tremble and my hands didn’t shake. There was no grand gesture, shakespearean sonnet type moment. No. There was slowness and a cautiousness, almost an unwillingness on both our parts.
Life is easier without love. Being self sufficient is easy. Being in love is hard. And dangerous. Very very dangerous.
Sometimes things that start slow last longer, grow stronger and have deeper roots. And at least its real. And as you have told me before, our relationship is younger than we think it is. And who knows, it could fall apart at any stage but untill then I will promise you something (the idea of which I may have borrowed from Bob Marley)
You may not be my first or my last, you cannot be my only, it’s too late for that…
I loved before and if you leave me I will love again.
I’m not perfect, you aren’t either, and the two of us will never be perfect together – but if i can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, then admit its rare. Admit its love. Admit you should hold onto me.
I may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but I have given you a part of me that i know you can break. So don’t hurt me, don’t change me in a bad way, smile when I make you happy, let me know
when I make you mad, and miss me when i’m not there
In return, you get me. I’m damaged goods. But I’m yours.
What can I say?.:(
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